And my heart beats ...

I have all these feelings for you and i cannot tell you or most of all show you ... because your just inside my monitor ... and your inside my mind, my heart and my eyes. Why cant i be with you ... why are you so far away from me and my heart .. why do you lie to me and tell me that im a kid ... that im too young ... why must i hear your name in the middle of the day ... why do we always fight over stupid things .. why cant i just be with you and hold you ... why do i feel like this if your only inside a monitor ... why cant i hug and feel your warmth ... why do i have to hear words ... that i dont want to ... why do i still like you after all that ...

Just answer me why im so into you ... why i care about you? why i worry about you? feel you? wish you\'d call and at least say \"hello\" ...

Sometimes i can actually feel your presence behind me ... to kiss me, to hold me, to love me ...

But something is missing ... why do we have to live so far way from each other ...

Distance ..

Miles ...

Hours ...

Minutes ..

Seconds ..

I wish you lived here ... right beisde my heart ..

Right beside my love ..

I want to be with you ..

I want to wake up and share the beautiful mornings with you ..

I want to share the incredible night and stars with you ..

But

.. is that ever going to happen ...

Will that ever come true ... or will it rot away in my dreams ...

I need an answer but i doubt i will get one ... because id have to tell u .. these feelings are for u ..

.. and i dont think i can .. because you have hurt me before about this ... and u might again .. i cant risk it

because its too painful , especially coming from you ...

Why ...