Me...

I sit here and wonder
where would i end, heaven or down under
I hate whom i am, i don't like me
Just i wanna go somewhere and be free.
From this pain and misery.
Cause I'm not doing any good
for only thirteen years i have stood
I'm never having a good time.
It feels as if Ive done a crime.
No one has fun when I'm around
because I'm boring and underground
so i sit out if everything
cause i feel ill ruin something.
Having a good time, for me And people,No
Cause its never gonna happen, i feel low
This way i feel each day it grows
I might as well leave.
Cause theres nothing here for me to receive.
so i sit in the darkness.
all full of sadness
i am a hateful person.
no one should know me.
i am a bad person.
You shouldn't have met me.
now that you did its a mistake you made.
my soul,face and everything i wish i could trade.
I'm sorry for the person i became.
I tried to change, but i stayed the same.
I wish i could reset life like a game.