A life no one understands

Always smiling, laughing happy as can be.
but through her smile they couldnt see.
how hard it was for her to stay strong
when nothing was right and everything was wrong.
days of fingers down her troat, tears in her eyes
holding everything back jus trying to get by
memories of the night her innocences was lost
when that boy ruined her life with out any thought
after that she didnt want to live
all she could think of was she was just a kid
once she realized shed been raped
alcohol and drugs were her only escape
things got worse when when she lived with her dad
she was never good enough and he was always mad
all she wanted was to make him proud
but he never cared cause me was never around
thats when the crimson streams came to life
releasing her pain with every slice
she continues to live her life as a lie
assuring everyone that she is just fine
what keeps her going is what he once said
over and over it plays in her head
\"peace will come to those in pain as sure at the sun shines after the rain\"