He killed me..

As he lays on the soaking wet floor
i wonder why
i wonder what
why couldnt i help!?!
why couldnt he talk to me
did he know i loved him when he pulled the trigger?
what was going through his mind?
was he trying to tell me something all along?
was he trying to hurt me ?
did he even care?
if i was laying on the floor soaking in blood, would he care?
would he sit beside my cold, bloody body crying and asking why?
would he just feel like he just died?
because i do! i just died..
when he pulled the trigger he killed me!
he killed what i lived for, what i loved
does he know.. does he care?