Wait For You Forever

I feel myself going weak again,
But its no unfamiliar feeling,
The slightest wind could knock me down,
And I find that thought rather appealing.

I search, and search for a way to end,
Without having it all blamed on me,
I scream, I cry, I starve, I lie,
But you don't know how hard it can be.

Laying in my bed of pain I sing myself to sleep,
Blocking out my fears and shivering in the cold,
Thinking about the times you hurt me,
And the lies that you frequently told.

But I'll just lay here waiting for my savior to come,
I'll hold my hand and pretend its his, blowing my fears away,
The reason that I cannot end is his blood in my veins,
We're oh-so-close and yet so far, and I wait for him everyday.