Friendship is what they called it (it sucks)

Its all so true
All that they say
And I am glad that my friends
Threw me away

I always knew
Deep down inside
That there was something
That they had tried to hide

And now that I know
I wish I had not been so naive
And I wish that my friends
Had just told me to leave

My entire life
I've been living a lie
And lonely and heartbroken
I wish I could die

My friends were my joy
But now they are gone
I wish they had told me
I didnt belong

I have learned many things
About friendship and love
Both are great things
Till your deserted in the hub

Ive been thrown away
Like a limp piece of trash
And now I feel
That my heart was smashed

So much that I know
Yet so much to learn
But to be accepted
Is all that I yearn

My eyes have been open
But too late to bother
Because I feel theyve been opened
Under salt water

And now I laugh
That I could have been so foolish
To let them deceive me
Like a ten-year old child

I look back at the things
That made me smile
And now that I have
I realize the denial

Denial of love
Denial of sense
Denial of my heart
And the feelings it has

Looking back I realize and
Now I feel Ive cheated myself
Out of the love
That I never have felt

Never in a millennia
Never, was I there friend
Not even If time skipped forward
To its very end

I feel deserted
Just like a hopeless hack
And I wish that they had never
Asked me to come back

Because now I feel
Like I can not trust anyone
And I cant enjoy myself
Or even have fun

You try your hardest
And want them to understand
But now you realize that
You are only safe in your hand

When you feel like your alone
And life has given up
Just look back on me
And look at a screw-up