I Want To End It - 14/05/2006

I wanted to end it,
My life, the pain,
Everything,
I was going insane.

I was driving myself mad,
To the edge,
Hurting everyone and my self,
I made myself vulnerable to the ledge.

To the side of life,
To the blade,
To the water,
To the world, I wasn't afraid.

I dug into my own heart,
And ripped it out,
I hurt my self,
I became vulnerable, I didn't even shout.

I didn't let go,
But I thought of it,
I dragged my heart,
Behind me, along the dirt, I wanted the hit.

I asked for it,
Things come in three's.
I've learnt the lesion,
Not to assume, or live on high seas.

Not to drag my heart,
Along the dirt,
Rip into my own soul,
And kill my faith, just like Kurt.

©Elisha L. Brain 2006