I am so sad, i know exactly why

I am so sad , i know exactly why.
it turns out my life has been one big lie.
she said she would be there, you know? always by my side.
she said she would be there for every time i cried.
shed say to a lady, have manors. and NEVER take the lords name in vain.
said the lord would save us, from all our pain.
i remember the sudden head lights gleam.
every thing went dark, all i could hear was her scream.
who would of known that 10 quick minutes was all it would be.
to kill the women, and end a happy family.
i remember laying there in the hospital bed.
looking for my mother evaluating what she said
all these thoughts running through my head.
then i heard the doctor say, this women is dead.
so wheres the lord now ? hes not even near.
mother you lied, you said he'd always be here.
in those brief moments i couldn't even think.
i bet the lord was watching our very own car sink.
so now I'm alone, my best friend taken.
forever, haunted , alone and shaken.