Left behind and ready to die

In my mind I feel ashamed.
without you here i go insane.
my bloody tears run down my face.
as I walk down this faded place.
why did you leave me far behind?
you should have killed me instead of leaving me behind. I'll never forgive you for what you did...you killed yourself, which i never understood. Was it ME -or- Someone ELSE? did i piss you off to make you kill yourself? But theres one thing i want you to know...I loved YOU SO MUCH, but not enough to let you go! :-(