Suicidal diary

Dear diary,

today i gave a lil smile
for everyone to see
it wasnt all that bad
and it came from the real me

my days have been looking bright
while passing up the past
it just seems all unreal
i wonder how long it will last

-----------two days later---------------------

dear diary,

yet another wonderful day
my smile has now grown
i think i might be dreaming
yet its still unknown

i also made a new friend
all on my own
that made my smile grow
just to know im not alone

-----------two more day later---------------

dear diary,

i had been asked out today
by this really cute boy
it made my heart leap
ooo what a joy

im going out tonight with him
to tell the truth i dont know what to do
i hope it all goes well
as every thought of him, my smile grew

------------one day later---------------------

dear grim reaper,

dear grim reaper
im writing to you
please take me away
for i am through

my date went all wrong
he treated me the wrong way
and forced away my innocents
leaving money for pay

my smile that i once held
has now disappeared
for now its replaced by the same old frown
but this one i have feared

---------next day at school----------------

dear diary,

today i had to skip school
the rumor had been put into play
it must have been a lie
from all the bad things i heard them say

my face is pale
and i getting weak
its getting to much to take
im reaching my peak

------on the phone that night-------------

dear diary,

my friend gave me a call
told me what she had heard
asked me if it was true
and did not say another word

i tried to explain what happend
i knew she didn\'t believe
as she hung up with \"im sorry\"
this made me really want to leave

*the next few days where cruel.. as she skipped every day of school.. life just got worse.. as if she was under an internal curse*

dear diary,

this is my last entry
how could i have gone so wrong
i was better off without meeting happiness
i guess i wasn\'t all that strong

*leaving a note
-im sorry to all my loves
-it was he who you may blame
-along with those horrible rumors
-it really is a shame

-this is my tragic ending
-i just couldn\'t handle it no more
-i\'ll now have that ever ending smile
-the one that ya\'ll had tore

tears streaming down her face.. pointing a gun to her heart.. for it is now shattered.. leaving her to her depart*