Empty Shell

Standing in a crowd
I feel lonely and afraid
I cant forgive myself
For the mistakes I have made

I cant take back the cutting
I cant hold back the tears
I cannot remove the memories
That's been haunting me for years

My life will never be perfect
It will never be the same
As the life of someone fortunate
Who's never felt great pain

I want to finally smile
Knowing that its not a lie
I want to feel happy
As I watch the fake me die

But I know this cannot happen
If I stay inside my shell
Locked up inside with secrets
With no one there to tell

Ill forever stay a shadow
In my hopeless fake charade
It was once black and white
But I've added a crimson shade