Lost Friend

Lost in the way of hate
wondering what is it that I did wrong
Having no where to stand still.
I have lost you.

I am now grieving for you.
You have been a great friend for me.
I never wanted this friendship to
end this way.
In such a vulgar way.

I hate myself for having made
the biggest mistake of my life.
I can never forgive myself for
having hurt you, my friend.

I don't know how to say I'm sorry
for I have said it too many times.
I know I was wrong.

For all the secrets that I have
told you,
whispering in each other's ears.
Giggling and doing everything
good friends do.

But you never told me it
would hurt you.
I would have never done it
if you would have told me before.

But you also hurt me.
I never wanted to do anything
that someone told me to do
screaming at me.

It hurt, I know,
but words hurt more than actions.

I am grieving for both of us,
for you won't my friend.
So I guess this is the end, right?
I wish it wasn't.