Suicide Date

Why whenever I feel sad
Do I turn to you and do something bad?
You make the pain inside go away
You make it feel like no one can hurt me with what they do or say

Time went by and I never touched you
But I found you one day and knew what I had to do
I cut so deep I couldn't stop bleeding
Slowly my heart stopped beating

Alive the next morning I wake up and cry
I cry because I was supposed to die
My mom found me before it was too late
Thinking to myself,"2 more weeks til my next suicide date..."

Sorry if this sucks...it's just...I dunno I needed to write...PLEASE RATE AND MESSAGE!