Waiting

-I sit in this cold, dark room as I contemplate on the past few years
-Uncertain of why I threw my life away and knowing y I caused so many tears
-I cant ever do good enough, not for you, her, or me
-Ive tried;believe me I really have but no one ever tries to see
-They look at me with disappointment in their eyes; afraid to open up their mind
-Afraid to look through my soul; to look into my heart; to see what they might find
-Ive never thought about suicide but this is the night that brings out the real me
-For never talking about my feelings;scared of what people might really see
-I could die tonight and within a half of a year everyone would forget
-But there would never be one moment in my life that i wouldn't regret
-Though I have been fooled; I'm too strong; I have too much to lose
-But if you ever think about "it", its the biggest decision you'll ever have to choose
-Ill never give up though; after all these years I never have, never will
-What our hearts most deeply feel, words alone cannot reveal
-So alone in the darkness I still sit, waiting for someone to turn on the light
-The light that shines through my heart where they will find a new meaning to love; you never know they just might!