MOM? MOM? .....ARE YOU THEIR? CAN YOU READ THESE THOUGHTS? DO YOU HEAR ME PRAY? OUR WHOLE FAMILY IS STUCK DOWN HERE IN THIS TERRIBLE PAIN, WONDERING WHATS WRONG WITH ME? AM I INSANE?
I DONT KNOW WHAT HAS COME OVER ME THE STRESS IS HITTING ME HARDER THEN EVER BEFORE, I NEED YOU NOW! ...BUT UR NOT HOME..
YOUR NOT HERE FOR ALL THE THINGS THAT ARE IMPORTANT TO ME, YOUR NOT HERE WHICH REALLY HURTS ME INSIDE...BECAUSE I REALLY NEED YOU TO BE...IT DOESNT FEEL LIKE I AM STRONG ENOUGH FOR ALL THE DRAMA IN MY LIFE.
IT DOESNT FEEL LIKE I AM GONNA MAKE IT I AM HEADING FOR THE KNIFE. YOU SEE MY FRIENDS EXPLAINED IT TO ME, IT DOESNT HURT TOO BAD, IF YOU DO IT SLOWLY LIKE THIS, WATCH ME, SEE IF I CUT A LITTLE HERE, AND A LITTLE THEIR, THEN I COULD JUST MAKE UP A LIE, ON HOW I GOT THAT CUT IN MY HAND.
BUT IF I DO IT TOO FAST, THEN THEIR WONT BE NOTHING LEFT OF ME, JUST A WORTHLESS, PIECE OF JUNK, THAT MAYBE SOME ONE WILL SAY\" HEY SHE HAD A GOOD LIFE, GOOD HEAD ON HER SHOLDERS ,...BUT SHE THREW IT ALL ALWAY... AND FOR WHAT IS IT WORTH IT THE PRICE OF GETTING OVER THE PAIN U LEFT IN MY HEART?
MAYBE FOR A MOMENT OR TWO, BUT NOT WORTH ENOUGH, FOR U TO SAY" HEY THATS MY DAUGHTER, I AM PROUD SO PROUD OF YOU" I DONT WANT THAT FEELING HANGING OVER ME SO I AM GETTING RIDE OF THE KNIFE, AND WALKING AWAKE FROM THIS PAIN, YES TOMORROW MIGHT BE GREATER, BUT NOTHING LIKE TODAY.
I LOVE U MOM, AND I REALLY WISH YOU WERE HERE, BUT GOD NEEDS YOU MORE UP THERE AND NOW I UNDERSTAND THAT PART "MAY GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL, AND U REST IN PEACE ALRIGHT? BYE MOMMY, SEE U SOME DAY, HOPE UR PROUD OF ME,JUST LIKE I AM PROUD OF U... AND EVERYTHING ELSE YOU DID FOR ME, I AM PROUD TO SAY, UR MY MOMMY, AND I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL THAT DAY, WHEN WE'RE BOTH AT THE HEAVENS GATES LOOKING DOWN ON WORLD. SO UNTIL THAT DAY COMES, HERE I WAIT, HOLDING ON SOO STRONG!! R.I.P. MOM.
