That Special Place

I need a place, a place where death dont matter, a place where your heart dont shatter, i need a place where i can finialy just relax, trying to just find who i am, where im going, if i can live long enough to see my daughter growing. you see i had alot of shit done to me, wonder if god will ever be forgivein me, i sit down, try to lighten up, just cant figure out how not to end of like a scrub.
Heavens to far away, hell is to close.
I Wonder When I Reach the pearly gates, will they open up,
god the only one that knows.
sit here and remanice about my fears, brought so many tears.Its been crazy for me the last year.
I need to dream, there has to be something after here, i dont need to fear.
god is near, life hasnt even begun, now for me, i can put down this gun, i dont need to run.
when i go its my time,
i cant see the sign, but to shine is to live
knowing i will go to that place,
that place in heaven