Hatred, Sadness, and Lonliness

Of the days you have convinced me
i never would of thought this would happen..
if only, if only you knew how i felt.

out of this cold dark space
i can feel you laughing and staring
saying things that everyone would believe

While i sit in this space.. thinking..
crying.. wondering what's going on
i have nothing yet to do execpt sit,
think, and cry...

i think about all the years having to listen to you
thinking about how many times I've hated you, how many times you've deserted me, and left me here all by myself

i cry.. because there is nothing else for me to do
crying because of how humiliated i have been and how you've tortured me so..

I'm to scared to do anything
besides sit here.. I'm too scared to speak, too scared to stand up or crawl...