Trapped forever

I can't explain the feeling,
the pain so intense I just want to die.
My palms sweating, always ice cold.
I can't remove those horrible thoughts and dreams.

You have gotten me trapped here.
Inside of myself.
The feelings of hate and anguish tear me apart everyday.
I lay in bed crying, wishing that i would just die.

Please let me go.
Whatever it is that has trapped me.
I need out of this horrible place before I kill myself.
These marks i already have will never go away, and I can\'t stop from putting them there.

It\'s a habit of trying to be free.
Of drinking that toxic stuff that i know will hurt me.
Of cutting so deep I know I might die.
How can I get out of this trapped life?

My mom screams at me too. It\'s like the 2nd barrier to my freedom.
I know I wont be good enough for the world.
That is why I am ready to go.

To let this unbelievable trapped feeling go.
I am ready to end this horrible thing I have.
I am Sick of everything my body and mind go through.
I am am ready to die....to let this trapped feeling finally go...