Not my way

It took a spin again

this little world of mind

out of orbit all over again

the feeling of never being loved

the feeling of starting to go numb

the rumors fly

as so I do not

I'm lost again,

all over again.

I wanna cry,

I wanna die.

why cant things go right

I try not to fight

I try not to argue.

but the urge is to strong.

so I sit back and ask.

why cant things go my way?

why cant I ever get who or what I want.

why do love so much?

but I cant be loved back?

why do I keep on trying.

to live this life I do not want.

why do I have these feelings

when can I go numb?