THE

The love i feel
and
the fear of it
the anger of my own hauntings
the sadness that flows in my veins
the wanting to kill myself
the never guts to do it
the never good enough i am
the failure i am
the down cast i am
the pain i feel inside
the burns
the tear crawling down my face
the fear of losing u
the psychopath that lives in me
the rejection i am
the never good enough
the ugly
the bad
the good i want to have in me
the understanding
the depression
the dark black tears
the nose bleed
the helplessness
the need to confess
the cute.. u
the me.. mess
the hurt that i choose to compress
the submission
the discussion
the searching
the waiting
the panicing
the fear
the confusion
the anger
the blood in my eyes
the insecurity
the more and more and more
the core the core and the core
the secrets untold
the venom unfold
the violation of my own rule
the rule
the law
the government in me
the lawyer
the judge that conscience
the poem
my poem
this long poem
I am Sorry

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