Untittled again

I wrote it two years ago. i know its bad but i dont care.
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How can I be so selfish
how can i be so upset
when others have it
much worse off
and i have life near
its best
how can i no longer
want to deal with
the burden of living
when so many
are dieing to live
how can i be so selfish
i never used to be covetous
i never used to be like this
when did this sudden change take me over
did it happen
all of a sudden
or was it painfully slow
how can when people every were
are dieing painful deaths
and people
just want a sip of clean water
when they are happy to eat once a weak
there are kids who cant walk
because of the malnourishment
Africa AIDS is taking over
and here i am
wanting to give up
i know i need to keep on fighting
but for me its harder then it seems
when everything comes crashing down all at once
i just want to give up
but for those kids out there
who want life so much
i wish i could give them mine
the guilt i would feel
if i gave up something they need
so i wont
not just yet
ill keep trying