Anything At All

From my cheek a tear falls down,
Knowing things will never be the same.
It feels like it's always my fault,
And that I'm always the one to blame.

I try my hardest to do things right,
I just want to make you proud.
But I always mess things up,
Causing you to yell really loud.

I hate that you don't care,
And that you don't at all try.
You don't even know why I am the way I am,
Or that at night I always cry.

I barely ever see you,
But when I do it isn't pretty.
You're always saying I'm wrong,
Causing me even more insecurity.

I feel like you've given up on me,
And that you don't want to help me through.
Do you know how long it's been,
Since I've even heard 'I love you'?

I want you to give me a hug,
To tell me it's all going to be okay.
To show me that you still care,
And that you still want me to stay.

I watch you with my sisters,
How you laugh and smile together.
I wonder why we don't do that?
I haven't smiled in forever.

I always walk by unnoticed,
I'm just a shadow passing through.
Why cant you spend time with me?
Why cant you say I love you?

I'm still wanting my mommy back,
And the tears still continue to fall.
But still you don't do anything,
You don't do anything at all.