What Happened When I Told Myself I Loved You

It hurts to see the person you love the most walk away
And it hurts to say you're over them, yet you still love them day after day
And it's hard to cope with the fact that your love is true
Because it hurts to know they don't care about you
And to them you will always be a great friend
But to you, you're love for them won't ever end
And you love them with every teardrop you cry
Yet you come to realize that they're the reason those tears fill your eyes
And it pains yourself to know that you let down your guard
And to realize that it was the wrong time
You realize that what everyone told you was a lie
And you realize that without that one person you could die
And it hurts so much to see them walk into your life for you
And then walk out of your life with someone else
And the person they leave with doesn't deserve them
And you hate it because they always win in the end
Everything you've ever wanted is theirs
Everything you've ever needed is theirs
Everything you've ever cared about
Has cared about them more
And it hurts so bad to go through life the way you do
And to realize that nobody could give a damn about you
And you can always hide behind your smile
But that fakeness will wear off after a while
And it's hard because this has happened before
And so when it happens again it hurts more and more
And with so many other things going wrong in life
It's hard to know what is wrong and what is right
So things happen that can change your future
And things happen that you can never undo
And that is what happened when I told myself I loved you