I life of hate and hurting!!!

.....well im only 15 and this is my first ever poem, so well here it goes!!

a life time of hate
when all people do is discrminate
day by day i get older
and your words, they hit me even harder
i look at the world and think what a shame
but you know what we are all to blame
but you don\'t have to the scars
or feel pain at night as you gaze at stars
instead you are the main cause
pointing out everyones flaws
you see i had it done so much to me
that when i look at myself its only a failure i can see
and im not saying your to blame
because i did this myself, give me the shame
ive had so much s*h*i*t in my life
that when im alone, i stare at the knife
wondering what would happen if i was to pick it up
in my heart i would let it get stuck
would anybody even stop and think of me?
do you think they would look in my eyes and see?
my true and inner personality?
would they see my true beauty?
would they think of they heartbreak they cause?
would they bother to look behind closed doors?
but people are blind to the different girl sitting in the corner
if she screamed out would they even listen to her?
even \"best friends\" and \"family\" just take a back seat
put on their shades, become blinded by the heat
but im not going to keep complaining
because i must keep myself restraining
from being the one who\'s life is is failing

well what do you think??

xx SoAlOnEgUrL xx