Will This Fear Ever Go?

Will this fear ever go?
Why did you act that low

Because I'm scared
I can't believe you dared

I'm scared of all men
Thinking will it happen again

When I turned fourteen
You turned horrible and keen

I tried not to be on my own with you
I was wondering who you'd turned into

You touched me
And wouldn't let me be

I didn't know what to do
And thought who should I kill me or you

I decided it should be me
So I planned it for after tea

First I did a couple of cuts
Didn't think there'd be any buts

But there was
Just because

You were there
Just like a prayer

You saw the state I was in
Oh what a sin

You asked me why
So I told you I wanted to die

You asked me again
So I grabbed a pen

And started to write
I didn't half look a site

You read what I put
And looked at my cuts

You said I'm sorry
He should be hit by a lorry

I laughed at that
Oh what a rat

You say I should of told you
So I took the que

Then I said why did he go so low
Will this fear ever go?