What I didn't say

I always had a thought
Sarcasm every word
I treated you so bad
Yet you didn't change

I followed others' lead
Did what hurts the most
Never thought of you
Until we plotted the next step

I thought you'd always be there
But you were gone one day
I saw you the next year
But it was not the same

We couldn't talk or laugh
You couldn't move an inch
I saw you in that box
And my heart tore in two

Now I cannot tell you
How much I regret
Everything I did
The pain I never saw

It hurt you, now I see
They say that's why you died
We pushed you way too far
You just wanted help

I want to start again
This time I wouldn't follow
I want to be a friend
So I wouldn't have to say
The words I never said

I'm Sorry!