Couldn't I Have Stayed

I don't know where to start and i won't know where to end..
So much has happened, so much has hit me...
Ive changed there is no doubt about that, i see who i am, and who i was

The girl who never wore make up and the girl who never cried
Is replaced by this new form of a teenage girl, with black eyeliner and heavy lip gloss, and if u break her heart, shes sure to cry
I don't know what happened or where it started, but it happened, and i cant go back

How to fix it, how to cope, how to deal with all whats been broke
Friendships and trust, so needing to be built up again
But when will that process ever began...

I use to have all the answers, i always knew what to say
Now I'm lucky to just make it Through the day
What has happened to me, and how long has it been,
Since I've told u I've missed u, and wished we were still friends

We would laugh and giggle, and play all day
Scary movies and shopping trips, are now replaced by
Words of sorrow, and i wish i would have called

But now its to late, no use for wishing
The damage has been done, and those wishes
Fade away, I'm sure i could have tried harder

I'm sure we all could have fixed it, but
Ive almost been gone a year n thats a lot of lost time
Should i call you or write you an email, am i sucking up or do i truly care
What shall i say, i want to tell you I'm sorry, Ive thought about u everyday, Ive even brought up memories...that well, are to far gone now

Ive missed u really, everyday, but if i tell you, will u believe me or ask me to stay
I want to stay, forever thats true, but life goes on and i cant always dwell on the past
As much as it hurts, to look back and as much as it hurts to look forward,
Its as if I'm caught in-between time, another universe, another place

Far from here, and all this pain...to far away...to fix this pain...
I don't know what to say...i don't know how u feel...
All i have to offer are
My words of love and sorrow

so here they are as true as can be

I love you
And
Miss you

Oh couldn't i have stayed....

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