You Kill Me

I lie on my bed
As I continue to cry
There’s nothing I could have said
To make you change your mind
After all the love and time I put into you
Your decision is to
Move on to someone new
I look at your picture and cry
Your arm is squeezed tightly around me
I see a sparkle in your eye
What did I do wrong?
To make you not stay
I thought our love was strong
But you just walked away
Don’t you ever get sad when you hear our song?
Or is your heart so hard
That you just turn it off?
Do you ever wonder how you make me feel?
The pain you’ve caused is indescribable
I’ll probably never heal
Do you ever reminisce the good times we had?
Or do you think of me
As the girl you wish you never had?
Do you ever think of me
When you go to sleep at night?
Do you regret what you did?
Do you want to take back that fight?
How could you let a girl come between us?
You knew how I felt
How did your feelings suddenly change?
When will I wake up from this nightmare of you?
I wish it was a dream
So it wouldn’t be true
I look around my room
And it’s all memories of you
Letters, pictures, clothes, and shoes
I can’t give you up
Even though I know you don’t care
I want you to be there when I wake up
I want you to care
Everyone knows I still love you but you
When I try to tell you
You say you have someone new
You don’t understand the pain that brings me
You look at me
As an obsessive freak
But I can’t get over the love we shared
When you needed me
And you were always there
I have to face the truth
You’ve moved on
But I can’t forget our love
That we shared for so long
It makes me sick that you don’t think of me
And I’m sitting here depressed
And you don’t even care about me
It makes me sick that you love her
And I can’t even get over you
Because there’s no one better
I hate when people say
‘There’s other fish in the sea’
Because out of millions and millions of people
You’re the only one I need
I’m sitting here lying on my bed
Remembering everything of you
As thoughts fill my head
I cry myself to sleep every night
When you’re with your new girl
Not caring if I’m in sight
I’m sitting here praying with all my might
That you’ll come back to me
I’m sitting here unable to do anything at all
You’ve wounded me so bad
My heart, my joy, my love, you took it all
I know I should get over you
I know I should move on
But there’s just something about you
That wont let me press on
I want to let go
I want to be free
But imagining you with her
Makes me never want to leave
I’m in a competition with myself
Because you’ll never take me back
I’m only hurting myself
Because you’re turning your back
I know all of this is true
But the more I think of you
I can’t get over you
I tried liking other people
But you’ve scarred me so bad
I’m scared to trust people
I’m scared to love because of you
I’m scared they’ll lie
And do what you do
I’ve tried not thinking of you
But then I see tons of memories
When I was with you
I see you in places I would never imagine
Then I fall even more in love with you
And it brings back the passion
I tried praying to God
That he would take you out of my life
I cried and screamed
Because I cant take this strife
I tried throwing away every memory of you
But they’re still in my head
They wont let me get away from you
I see you kissing her on the lips then on the cheek
And it kills me inside
Because those lips were meant for me
Your love was supposed to only be mine
I’ll never get over you
You’re always on my mind
I’ve tried everything and nothing works
It kills me to know
We would never again work
I just wish you could take the time to see
I need you
And we were meant to be
You kill me with every word you say
You kill me with every prayer I pray
You kill me when you ignore me everyday
You kill me when you don’t talk to me
You kill me with all your negativity
You kill me with every memory
You kill me with every kiss I see
You kill me because we could never be
You kill me when I see you all the time
You’ll never know you killed me
This was my last resort to forget the memories
I just want you to know what you’ve done to me