Love versus Hatred

When I saw you..
My head would swirl like a whirlpool..

That was then...

When you looked at me..
My knees felt week,
Like a chair with three legs..

That was then...

When you called my name..
My heart would melt into nothingness like icecream..

That was then..

And when you always said you loved me..
I believed it from the bottom to the top of my heart..

But was it then?
Could it still be now?

You stole it..
My heart..

And you broke it in two..

You told me you loved me..
And it might have been true..

My heart and my mind..
Just don't know what to do..

I know that I needed you..
But can't think it through..

I know you did the unthinkable..
And I know it was wrong..

But would it also be wrong,

If I still loved you?..

I can feel it still..
When you look at me..
When you call my name..

Somehow..

It still feels,
Exactly the same..

I don't know why..
Or how this can be..

Am I stupid?
Or just really weak..

Its so hard..
Knowing that you hurt me..

There will always be a part of me that hates you..

But then that other side,
Of love,

Takes over my hatred..

Your love may be confusing..
But I have to let you know..

That always..
From the bottom of my heart,

Somehow, I will still love you..

Dedicated to Alex.. luv yaXOXO