Evil

Sunshine creeps through the drapes of the window, to once again meet my face.
As I cry in silence, by my bed, moaning with disgrace.
Holding onto the shards, of my mothers, dearest vase.
Fearing if I open the door, I won`t be safe.
Clutching on the sheets of my bed, that feels like lace.
Feeling as if, my time here, was a waste.
Hoping to not endure, such a twisted fate.
The blood on my lips, gives me a bitter taste.
It seems that my dreams of the future, from above, has come to late.
How did my family come to such a dreadful state?
What is this feeling, of indescribable hate?
For a father, who looks at his little girl with lustful eyes.
For a mother, who is to consumed by insanity, to hear my cries.
For a sister, who takes each breath to only speak of lies.
This world, does not seem the same, even though nothing has changed.
It`s all in my state of mind, becoming more deranged.
From this daily torment, I get more outraged.
Tearing out the entries of my diary, page by page.
Forsaken by my racing thoughts, of being saved.
Setting old photo`s of the past, ablaze.
I now beg of a illusionary savior, to let me die by the blade of a razor.
But I want to live on, I don`t know why, I just can`t say goodbye.
Can`t say goodbye, to a family who has failed me so, but it`s my time to go.
Hear my final words on the phone, thanks to you I now have to live on bitterly alone.
Thanks to your careless mistakes, I can never come back home.
Who is to blame, for all this sorrowful shame?
Things will never be the same, after such pain, after the day that evil was given name.