What i see

WHAT I SEE
Laughing like it doesnâ??t hurt
Even though I feel like a jerk
You say you love
But that is not what I see
You go away and are with them
I donâ??t understand what you see in them
They all make you cry
And you donâ??t know why
I donâ??t understand at all
Why I am not the one that you call
At the end of the day
Even though you are the one I think of when I pray
Every night before I go to bed
A tear for you I shed
When I think of you the rain just falls
And I donâ??t want anymore of there useless calls
I feel like I am losing you
In a never ending cycle of blue
The thought of you just makes me cry
And for some reason I just donâ??t get why
You say that you really do care
If so then why arenâ??t you ever there?
When I need you to be here
All you do is look at my tear
So you can stop saying that you care about me
Because this is what I see.