My fears, my tears, and all of my hate

Im living in fear and hate
Never asking for my fate.
Never gasping for air.
Never wondering if anyone cared.
Im all alone inside.
Everyone acting like i had died.
Everyone not even daring
Everyone not even caring.
Im so sorry for the people that i have hurt
I treated you all like dirt
I could have been more nice
I used to treat you like my lover
Never knowing who i was
Never asking who i loved
Never asking you who you wanted
Never finding out which of us died first
Never knowing who loved who
Never fixing this broken heart of mine
Never mending the hurt
Never mending the break
Never getting over the fact that i could not get you back
Never letting you close
Never letting you down
Never getting close
Never being distent
Never getting too far
Never grwoing closer
Always getting distent
Slicing away the pain
Trying to find the mend
Wanting to fix the break
Nothing can fix you
Nothing can fix me
Nothing you can do
Can make you change me