I know it will never be

I spill my heart out to u,
More and more each day,
But still I know the truth,
I will never have my way.

I care about u more,
And I want it to be less,
The only thing I can do,
Is hope for the best.

I know that its never going to happen,
I know well never be,
But I can hope cant I?
And I cant help but dream.

Its just that these things,
They hurt so much,
But yet I cant cry for u,
Out of everything I do.

Don't u understand,
Yea I know u do,
Cause u feel the same way for her,
As I do for you.

I scream and yell,
But that wont help,
Trust me I tried before,
And I just ended up torn.

But yet I only wish,
That you would hold me in your arm,
Make me feel safe,
Let me think that I would never be harmed.

But I know this will never be,
It would never work,
Since you don't feel the same way for me,
Oh yea and in the past u were a jerk.

Why do I still like you?
I asked my self a million times,
But all I ever came up with,
Was all these stupid rhymes.

I'm trying so hard to let you go,
And let the friendship remain,
But still the truth is yelling out,
I can never just feel one way.