Can't Change A Person

People try to tell me
That you can't change a person
I don't believe them
Not a word

But still, you can't force a person
To hate or love someone
You can't make them into a copy
They have to make the choice themselves

Only problem is
What if that person is me?
Why can't I change?

Thing is, I die inside
But I don't mean to
I want to be happy
I just can't seem to

I don't know why, but it seems so long
Since I could relax for real
I'm so tired of it
And people bother me without trying

I wish people could see I have no way of smiling
I just can't smile; it's very strange
I cannot define myself; I cannot change

Why, when I'm alone, or with my best friends
Am I so good, but others do I dread?

It is so strange in this world
Sometimes I wish I could be
A different girl

I love people, I know I do
But some just get on my nerves
These androids think they can label me
I'm not "goth" or "emo", have you heard?

I'd rather stick to myself
I can never, ever change
I might feel different wherever I go
But the person I am still stays

I try so hard to be myself
But I seem to have lost touch
Life has become a hassle
A load that is too much

No, I'm not depressed
I'm just very annoyed
Why should bad things happen to me
While others get a choice?

People call me negative
I truly do not care
They don't truly know me
My outside person do I share

If people knew me on the inside
Really, truly deep
Then they would know why I am
The person I call me

I'm scared of facing the world
That hates me for who I am
But in my heart I know
I do not mind them

I can stick to myself
I am my own best friend
Those who understand me
Will know why I never say it's the end

I might not show my bright side
I might not act the best
But please, people, enough with the act
We all have a side that we dread

My side just happens to be
One of those sadly cursed
Too shy to even speak
Too sensitive, always feeling what hurts

But the things of today
Won't be remembered tomorrow
That is why the day after
I wipe away my sorrow