Creamy White Skin

You wouldn't understand
Couldn't possibly fathom
Why I receive this pain with open arms
Or why I'm the cause of such agony
The joy I get from seeing a sharp glint of metal
The edge comes into contact with my creamy white skin
And tears of bitter-sweet pain invade my vision
You must wonder why such a thing makes me feel relieved
But I can't explain it so that you'll understand
Why the ruby red drops that flood the sink
Fill me with such happiness
My veins are open for the world to see
My peers, my emotions, my life cause my actions
I scar myself to forget everything else
The blood washes away the hurt and fears
But all you see is pain and stupidity
You can't understand
Can't seem to grasp this concept
The seams of my skin are ripped open
And I revel in the feeling
I cannot touch the real pain that I have inside
But by splitting my wrist open
I can touch what hurts
And I decide whether I hurt or not
My emotions are running free
And blood stains my soul
You'll never understand
Why I ruin this creamy white skin

(C) Copyright 2006 by Kyleene Mitchell