Then and Now

I sit in my room
and think about what I had
How much I loved it
and now how everythings bad

I had so many friends
there was so many that loved me
Now there is only hate
and hate only for me

I use to laugh
until it hurt and I'd cry
But now it only hurts
because I want to die

When I didn't think about death
cutting didn't make sense to me
Now I understand
what then I didn't see

I know now
how hard that pain can be
I know now
because it's happening to me