Who am I?
I ask myself as I look into the mirror.
I see interesting hazel eyes, smooth pale skin.
I see a beautiful person, why don't you?
I always hope that you will see and tell me
I am beautiful and that you do see the real me.
Not only what you want to see.
But of course dreams don't come true in reality
And memories don't cease to exist
And nothing good happens to people like me.
People don't seem to understand
What has happened to me
When I do see you I try as hard as I can to understand
And to smile but it's just to hard for me
I cry and it feels like a cut that's so deep that I can feel on the inside, I wonder why you don't care when I care so much, when we touch I can feel that connection and it feels so awkward but then I realize you didn't feel a thing
People don't understand
What I'm going through
They just smile and carry on
They think I'm just as happy as them
Maybe that's why I look away
And hide under my false smile
Because I wish I was like them
I try and try but it's no use
I feel liked a burned out light-bulb,
Something that doesn't matter and
Cease to exist in your eyes
Somehow you seem to not see me
It's like I'm just not there
But I am even though sometimes I wish I was as invisible
As you make me feel
I feel so empty
And so lost
Then I look into the future
Why am I not there?
It's like I just wasn't there
Maybe I made myself disappear
And this is who I have become
