Nightcure

You can not feel my darkness
You can no longer come inside
If you haven't recognized the shame
You haven't heard the tears I've cried

The sheets they fall upon me
As I lie here, body numb
The voices sing of comfort
And the monster you've become

Tears, they gently roll
Off my cheeks onto my bed
This kind of night only exists
When I retreat into my head

It's peaceful with the fan
Trying to hum me to sleep
But I lie awake with resistance
For these nights they don't come cheap

My stereo lights are blue
I'm drowned in their pensive shade
Everything seems damp and cold
And for so long I've been afraid

The canopy drapes down the walls
And strings luxury in mid air
Illuminated by the moonlight
I can forget how you don't care

And I can remember how you loved me
Regardless of what you say
The darkness lets me love again
Forget I let you treat me this way

**i dunno if i got this right at all but i remember how hard letting this guy go was and how hard it was to have no say in the matter..but it was okay in the end i guess...