I know u never said u loved me or u cared..

I know u never said u loved me or u cared and i don't even know if there are feelings hidden there,
but what we had was some thing i cant explain i know this sounds cheesy buts its driving me insane
i loved u and have from the very very start, but u not knowing this is just shattering my heart, i know I'm a freak and also way to strange but if u would just give me a chance i know i can change.
i would change for u so at least you would let me b, b with u and live happily, ya but i guess this sounds stupid to u, i bet Ur reading and thinking woo woo, this girl is weird to weird for me, so my chance of us isn't happily, but then again u could feel the same o well I'm just the girl whats her name. never being loved, never being hugged, never to feel the warmth of a guy never to lay next to him looking at the sky, never telling some one how much i care and love them so, or going out side and throwing balls of white pearly snow, but in the end i may find the guy thats right, but all i want is u right here right now on this very night, so read this here and i hope u see how much i really love u honestly, i love u with my heart and soul and if your not here my life is one big hole, empty with out u but not full enough with just u there, you need to b in my heart everywhere, but o well i guess I'm stupid and so Day, but i guess loving u makes me crazy, so ill die loving u with theses feelings that are true, i wish it was u and me talking or spending time happily, so now I'm done expressing my foolish feelings for the foe, lets guess u don't care no one does not him or her or u, i will die with sadness and being cold, so I'm asking u to now just be bold, and tell me if I'm creepy to u, tell me if I'm annoying to! please tell me Wat can i do? to make u like me Wat circumstances must there b? for u to like me? so w/e this is the end please please can u love me my dear old Friend?

i made this up a long time ago but tell me if its gay..