Never There

Has it changed
Or did I just not notice
It was never there.
I see our firends
How happy they are.
His head glued to her shoulder
Smiles on their faces.
You switch the channel
And there we are
Feet apart
Hands to ourselves
Like two little kids with cooties.
I think...
Why won't he touch me?
Don't I matter enough for him to touch me?
But then I remember...
It was never that way.
I think more...
What will happen?
Is this love?
I wish my mind would stop wandering.

again this was written in that 2 months of reflection i had... this brings back a lot of old memories and feelings as i type it... hope you like it