Nothing Without Me

He's so silent in his misery
Yet his wrists are raw from screaming
And all the nights I lay by him
His tears are cold and streaming.

I hold his hand because I'm afraid
There's not much more that I could do
I become silent and mournful by night,
And now these tears will fall for you.

I wish that I could hear your laugh,
A sound to drown away the pain
But every time I dare approach,
Tears are falling down like rain.

And I stand in complete silence
My veins screaming in my head.
Heartrate dimming, no more screaming
Cuts too numb to bleed bright red.

All this time I wait for him
His hand grows cold with silent death.
A silent refusal to keep on living
His stillness takes my breath.

Lightening flashes deep in his eyes
The love for me is heartless.
He simply lives now just to die
And to poison my life with darkness.

So even though I loved him,
Couldn't live without the feel of his skin,
I did what I had to do to break free
I swear it was just to save him.

I wrote him a note under his name,
All the while crying mascara too,
Fighting to seal my heart away,
Only to notice my cold hands turn blue.

I left him the letter in his hands,
Watched his eyes fill with tears
Until he looked at me in silence
That said, "I've loved you all these years."

But my heart was throbbing,
My blood seeped out crimson red,
Until the day there was silence
In everywhere except my head.

Here's just one bullet, my love.
And here's the fcuking gun, you see.
Say goodbye to the emptiness you knew,
For it'll be nothing without me.