Lost

Im lost without you
cant you see
i can never have the courage
to step up and be me

its not her fault
its only yours
you said it
when i was watching it pour

like i couldn't hear you
are you stupid or something
god I'm sick of this
sitting here and wondering

watching the razor blade shine
as it sits in front of me
omg what should i do
i picked it up and put it to my cheek

feeling the blade against me
i put it to my wrist
then i started taping it
i want you to watch somethin like this

what did you do to me
now I'm alone again
and still I'm lost without you
with the blade being my only friend

i should be dead by now
but just a few minutes left
it hurts so f u c k i n g much
but it is just a test

i can see my bone
i will not be saved
and i think its funny
i finally just caved

i couldn't take it then
and i still cant take it now
but i have to thank you
for giving me my last bow..

~`* dont ask about this poem i was just thinking about some shit*`~