He Cuts......I Cut

I found out what he does
He cuts himself
He does it all because of me
It\\\'s all my fault
I made him do it
I made him feel my pain
And for doing this I\\\'am a shamed
So I shall cut myself
Until he stops
For I will share his pain too
I just wish he would of told me
Instead of cutting
But no He doesn\\\'t talk to me
He won\\\'t tell me anything
I guess it\\\'s just all part of being a man
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I now hate myself
Because of what I made him do
I should just kill myself
So I will not cause him anymore pain
And I will know no pain myself
So I have taken that blade
From the shelf
And I put it to my leg
And I slide it across
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There was so much pain
But I\\\'m going because he does
So I went on and did it
1 cut
2.......
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Then I stopped
Because the pain was to much
How could I of been so blind
I could of stopped him from doing this
It\\\'s all my fing fault
I deserve to die
And never breathe again
So maybe I should
Because he thinks that I don\\\'t care
He thinks that I don\\\'t love him
When I do with all my heart
But I guess if that\\\'s how he feels
Maybe he doesn\\\'t want me to love him?
Is that what he\\\'s telling me?
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See I would know these things
If he\\\'d just talk
But no he doesn\\\'t tell me how he feels
He just keeps it bottled up inside
Maybe if he told me
He wouldn\\\'t hurt himself
I could of prevented this
But no I didn\\\'t see
So now I fear for him
And when I\\\'m not talking to him
I wonder if he\\\'s doing it again
And now thats all I think about
I wish I could help him
In some way
But I can\\\'t help him if he won\\\'t talk to me
I\\\'ll try me best not to be depressed
For I love you so much
I don\\\'t want you to hurt yourself
I\\\'ll never be sad again
If that\\\'s what it takes
But like I said before
If you cut
I cut............
Don\\\'t believe me
Well I\\\'ll show you my leg
And you\\\'ll see what I have done
But I can\\\'t write anymore
Because I\\\'m becoming sad
And I promised you I wouldn\\\'t
So I must stop
But to let you know
I know you care about me
And I know you love me
So don\\\'t think I don\\\'t know