I will always love you

I'm dying inside,
I'm crying, too.
How could you not understand,
That I needed you?

That day we fought,
The day I left,
Was the day I died,
Took my final breath.

I tried to hate you,
Tried not to care.
But I just couldn't pretend,
I didn't want you there.

For years and years,
I'd known only you.
Even when you didn't know the reasons,
You were always there for a hug or two.

When you discovered some secrets,
Not even the worst of the bunch,
You got me help,
Even though i tried to kick, scream, and punch.

And when you finally realized,
That I didn't want help,
You still stayed by my side,
Even when i pushed you away with a yelp.

But now, since that fight,
I feel cold and alone.
I feel like I can't,
Call anywhere home.

I have scars on my arms,
From when I tried to just get away,
But it really didn't work,
It just went into a new day.

For some reason, now,
The cutting won't work.
And more and more bad thoughts,
Creep into my mind and lurk.

My soul is dead,
And I might make my body die, too.
So I'm writing this now,
Just so I could tell you.

That if I die tonight,
From an extra aspirin or two,
I wanted to just let you know,
That I will always love you.