Spiritually broken*~*

Ok... i was really really really angry, hurt, and confused when i wrote this poem.. me and him got in a huge fight and he just won't let it go... i'm not going to kill myself don't worry, i was just really upset..
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my eyes are filled with tear drops
falling down like rain
my mind is filled with angry questions,
causing me so much pain

why does this have to happen again
to my already torn apart self?
why is this world so cruel,
feel so much like a hell?

how can he attempt to kill
what little life is left in my soul?
and just continue living
while my heart now contains a hole

how can he make me so happy
but still he kills me inside
he doesn't know how much this hurts,
how many nights i have cried

if he really does care about me
why does he just leave?
it just makes this harder to deal with,
makes it hard to believe

because i guess i thought he loved me
when he started to get so upset
but now i know he just hates me,
on my life i can bet

so what's the point of going on
knowing he doesn't care
the knife would be so much easier
then living without him there

i just wish he could see
i want to take back the words i have spoken
why can't he just understand
that he left me spiritually broken