Loved you then, hate you now.

As much as i say i hate you, i don't
as much as i say don't call me, call me
as much as i say i don't want you in my life, i do
as much as i say i don't need you, i want you
as much as i say i don't love you, i love you
in the beginning this was what i would have had to say.
you were everything i loved and hated at once.
but now that i have had you, you took away the walls around me.
there is no happiness that surrounds me.
and now
when i say i hate you, i really do
when i say i don't call me, don't bother
as much as i say i don't want you in my life, its because I'm better off
without you.
when i say i don't need you, I'm stronger without you
when i say i don't love you, its true.
and you are everything i love to hate.