It pains me to walk by your empty room
Where we always stayed up late at night to talk
But it kills me to walk by your foggy grave
And read the dates on that tormenting rock
December 18th 1990 to March 6th 1997
Here lays our little sunshine girl
But you weren't just the sunshine in my life
You were my entire world
Now in my world it rains all day
Since you've left me here
And every time I walk past your room
I wait for you to appear
But everything is lost in time
And I lost my sisters loving embrace
Now all I have are memories of you
And those too time soon will erase
I hate my tears which drop on your grave
Because that means I know that you're gone
You're my seven year old sister six feet under
And that's not where you belong
On the day that you flew into the sky
I was holding you close to my heart
Thinking that I was strong enough to hold you here
So you didn't have to part
But I wasn't strong enough to hold you
And now I'm all alone
I hate feeling that I'm the reason
That you lay beneath that stone
I know I couldn't have stopped your cancer
But I wanted so badly to take away your pain
Because all the times I was hurting inside
You picked me up again and again
And when I couldn't pick you up
I lost all feeling inside
Now tears fall upon your grave
As I slowly close my eyes
I see your smile shining in the darkness of my mind
My sister my Sunshine Girl
And for a second the tears stopped falling
And the rain stops in my world
My hands reaching out for a hug
The one thing I want to feel
But once again I'm not able to hold you
My eyes focusing on whats real
Whats real is your grave at which I stand
The grave at which you lie
The grave at which I feel lost again
The grave at which I cry
I cry for the loss of a sister
I cry for the loss of a friend
I cry for the loss of a life
A life that was too young to end
Time to go back to the house
Where Ill feel empty just once more
Dreading the walk down the hallway
Where there sits an open door
But this time when I go back home
That door I've decided to close tight
Because it no longer leads to a room
Where to sisters once sat late at night
Wow Rachel...it's been 9 years and i miss you just as much as i did the day you died. I'm sorry i wasn't able to hold you here.
