I'm sorry heart

Everything is wrong, everything hurts,
please put your finger on the trigger, heart, and let these be my last words,
there's no-one left and nothing to hope for,
so I'll say goodbye to this final bullet,
Everyone is gone, everyone left,
please pull back the trigger, heart, and cause this worthy death
there was never a hope anyway, I'm not meant to be,
so I'll say farewell with this final bullet,
Everything is bad, everything is cursed,
please place this gun on my head, heart, and let me hurt,
there's no where to go, no-one but me,
so I'll let go with this final final bullet,
Everything's ok, everything's fine,
please go away, mum, and let me have some time,
there's nothing wrong, nothing to worry about,
so please say goodbye and close the door,
Everyone's happy, everything's great,
please leave me be, dad, and please don't wait,
there's nothing to know, nothing to frown about,
so please say goodbye and close the door,
Everyone hurts, everyone lies,
please point the gun back at me, heart, and as my tears pour know that everybody cries,
there's no-one there and nothing to breath for,
so I'll say goodbye with this final bullet,
Goodbye is wrong, goodbye hurts,
put down the gun, heart, I don't want to say my final words,
there's mum and dad and everything to hope for,
so I'll say sorry with this final bullet,
I'm sorry heart, I'm sorry world, I didn't mean to be such a failure,
I've failed my suicide, I'm sorry I even tried, I wish I'd died.