I CANT SLEEP :: i HURT T00 BAD

I cant sleep tonight
something just dosnt feel so right
is it the fact that you slapped me across the face?
or basically called me a big disgrace?

do you know how that feels
i just cant believe this is real!
i dont feel like im loved
im so tired of being shoved

i cant shut my eyes
there too swollen from all these cries!
im sorry for all of my lies
ill try hard to stay strong--ill try

i dont think i can live like this
all it is - is empty bliss
this razor isnt sharp anymore
i used it too much before

do you think this is funny?
i just want one day to be sunny
i just wanna be dead
you would be better off instead

i never did anything to you
so why do i feel so untrue?
i wish i knew
when this would be through

{{ all the poems i wrote before this one is how i feel presently -- but that was part of my past and its talking about my family fights }}