But Not Really

Looking but not really seeing
Existing but not really being
Pondering but not really thinking
Floating but not really sinking
Worshiping but not really kneeling
Emotional but not really feeling
Miserable but not really crying
Deceiving but not really lying
Angry but not really mad
Approving but not really glad
Smart but not really logical
Believing but not really philosophical
Loving but not really knowing
Dying but not really showing
Adjusting but not really forgetting
Sorrowful but not really regretting
Smiling but not really bright
Dark but not really night
Considering but not really changing
Destroying but not really deranging
Supposedly living freely
But Not Really